23 Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
If …heart = life
Then does heart = death?
I couldn’t balance the cash flows today on my Finance exam, I spilt milk….soy milk.
I had no money for lunch- someone lovely bought me some lovely 
. All up though..I’m still as high as a.a..Chinaman stuck in a tree- Ok ok.all that shiznit is so fine.. all that can all be replaced. As long as my heart is ok. Right?
A fortress, made from the hardest iron-ore that was mined from the hardest miner with the hardest…never mind. That’s my heart. Untouchable. Get your hands off me. It’s not even my fault . I was designed that way-
God says so. But why? Can a man be truly free without the vulnerability of being unshielded- naked?
Defenseless to the attacks of the world?
What does it mean to love. . . .
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”emotions!!” says Rowland from Destiny’s Child
Taken over by them. Allowing the fortress to be crushed like an elephant stampeding through mudbrick in India. Drowning in it- as though you have been drinking a bit too much Henny Xo. Maybe. Maybe that is love?
Doubt it. Not everyone drinks- or maybe some people have a tolerance level. Those who aren’t drunk- they can’t love? They are unable to access the greatest most widely used and abused drug on Pluto?
Mother-f that! Doubt it again.
Or truly- how unbearable it would be.. to not be able to love
You’re doing well by controlling your emotions. You are doin’ well if you enjoy protecting yourself. But but.. what is the point if you cannot access, succeeed and overcome the very thing you are protecting yourself from? Does God want us to guard our hearts because we are SO incapable of handling the intoxication a drug potent enough to ’cause death. . . ?
We ain’t even talkin about drug here man. This is human. Human relationships brother! Not exactly UV lights at Springvale. (Ignore subtle hint of racism*)
In my quickest conclusion to date… here are some key thoughts.
-If it is ‘good’ to protect your heart because no heart leads to death. Death is ‘bad’ (Pressumably)
-why does it feel just as bad when you are protecting it- If you ain’t feelin it- if there are no emotions attached. . ..
-thus meaning…. one cannot love- which is ultimately unbearable.
Unless…here’s a bombshell now and I’m gonna drop it likes its hot
Love d o e s n ‘t e q u A l…….emotions.
Wow……………………………… Maybe you can think about that one and get back to me.. .. .
Thanks for reading. . . . . .
D FRESH 2.6.2008
Unless. . . . . . .our whole perception of love as emotions
Don’t ever take my kindness for weakness.
But I know not.
*you idiot if you bothered to look up this star thing Only idiots do that Grow up.
